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Aze's Permanent Spaze..

i'm now at www.azemea.com

well..not really la..ok..so here's the thing..blame bernard lee..for his ranting bout me gettin a chat box compelled me to move my ass back to blogspot..ok ok..well..its not a full move..and its not a permanent move..here is the thing..i started off with blogger..then went on to msn spaces..then kinda switched to blogger again..then back to spaces..so maybe its time for me to move back to blogger..only to return to spaces in the future..haa..im always switching between this 2..anyhoots..my 'azemea' name is fixed on both sites..so its either..

http://azemea.spaces.live.com

or

http://azemea.blogspot.com

plus another alternate..

http://azemea.vox.com


i cant entirely get rid of this blog because of so many reasons..one of which is the fact that all my sites have links that point to this as my blog..and worst still..MY PRECIOUS NAMECARDS HAVE THIS ADDRESS PRINTED ON THEM!! damn it!!! so..i have to keep this site up and running..so if ever the case that blogger has a bad hair day..i can always come back to my trusted and reliable spaces..for now..pls enjoy the move over to blogger..

ok..went out to TM..walk walk..hoping tt baby would meet me after work..which he did..in any case..i spent money today..haa..like retail theraphy kinda thingy..ok..here's wat i bought..

Sembawang Music:
$30.90- 300 DVD
$19.90- Braveheart & Kingdom of Heaven DVDs (comes in a pair)

but i got a $2 discount with my SAFRA card..

Watsons:
$23.00- Solo Care Contact Lens Solution
$  7.95- Gatsby Hairspray

met up with baby..n he got changed out of his uniform..then into the bookstore..

Times The Bookshop:
$33.71- The Mind Gym
$26.75- Fish! Omnibus

then we were both starved..i had nothing to eat since i woke up at 4pm..

Vienthai Kitchen:
$  8.70- Pad Thai
$  8.70- Green Curry Laksa
$  4.70- Rice Paper Rolls
$  5.70- Sugar Cane Prawn
$  4.70- Tofu Cubes
$  3.00- Barley
$  4.00- Pineapple Juice

we agreed that thai express is better..altho vienthai did have a real cute ass manager..we agreed on that too..hee..then after makan..baby went for a haircut and i went into giordano to get some plain tees for my designs..

Giordano:
$13.00- 2x sized M white tees
$  6.50- 1x sized M black tee
$  6.50- 1x sized L black tee
$20.00- 5x pairs of black quarter socks

there was this pair of berms i felt like getting..but it was $58+..tot i'd leave it for another day..

baby wanted to check out cds too..so back to sembawang music..

Sembawang Music:
$18.90- Corrinne May's Beautiful Seed
$18.90- Yoko Ono's Soul and Bossa

another $2 discount..hee..

then we took a neo print thingy..ok ok..baby looks kinda squinty..but i love him nonetheless..


then me n baby headed home..love spending time with him..time spent with my baby boo..priceless..muakz baby boo!!

omg i spent too much la..wahahahahhaah..

omie came by my place after sending his fren off at the airport..and he totally loves my new computer..hee..time for u to get a new one la darling..haa..we bitched bout his ahem ahem..me and mrs jones..then we played xbox..and since we decided to catch a movie..i booked tix for us to catch Rush Hour 3 at marina sq at 7.20pm..omie was in his heineken singlet..n berms..n white birkies..and carrying a white puma bag..i decided to dress similar to him..got out my beer chang singlet..put on my berms..lugged my puma bag..and wore my white havainas..cause i didnt wanna dirty the white birkies he gave me..plus..dressing similar is one thing..but if the both of us wore the same white birkies..then it would have been gay overkill..and my omie darling is so totally str8..i think we sure had ppl checking us out..2 gorgeous guys..dressed similarly..if they noticed the difference then they would know we aint no couple la..nexx time..me n my baby boo gonna have to dress up same same..so the world will know we love each other..ok baby boo..heee..the movie was kinda funny..the outtakes at the end were hilarious..the only thing bout the movie was the abrupt ending..tt totally put me off..anyway..we were gonna grab a bite at the xin wang hong kong cafe..but along the way..we bumped into jana waiting at the MS taxi stand with her guy..so ended up..the 3 of us were bitching n gossiping for like 20 mins there..after they left..me n omie makaned at the cafe la..chit chat some more..then after tt we go home..

oh oh..omie had his cam corder with him..so we took some vids..u'll all get to see it..someday..heee..for now..only 3 pics to share with y'all..

I  love you baby..cause eventho im not the most perfect guy in the world..you still chose to say those 3 words to me..i hope..one day..i can live up to being the best bf i can ever be for you..

i love you Ian Lee..

We had a blast playing around..while all other outlets had to wear the red scarf..we had to tattoo the national flag on our face..and they gave us face paint too..so i tattooed my face..and painted my hair..it was fun like hell..today..not slam at all..but with camera in hand..n the national day spirit high in b&g..i got into super hyper mode..got things done really fast..i think too fast..cause now im so drained..mouseover the pics for names n descriptions..

oh..btw..to all  my darlings..mono has changed their uniform..white shirt..with the wrinkly wrinkly thingy in front..u know..like the kind of shirt u wear on the inside of a penguin tail jacket..and they matched it with a black BOWTIE!! eeeeks..while we look spiffy..they kinda look classy in a cock way..in any case..this one esp to tidus darling..ADAM FANG BIAO TECK IS BACK!! cute as ever..n that damn boy pinched my butt..i'll get him tomm..and mayby i'll take a pic of them mono staff..wonder if elmo would be obliging enuff..

die la..shag out..im such a disappointment to my baby..

take a step back n tell me wat u see.. =)

ok..the images you are about to see may be offensive..esp if u dont have vista..wahahahahah..

this is wat my desktop look like..gorgeous aint it..they have that sidebar thingy which is oh so useful..u can add gadgets to it..so i added the clock..for easy reference..an msn gadget since i cant seem to get msn shell to work on vista..and a notes gadget..to remind me stuff..ok..so here is another view of vista..

yes..you can actually have icons that huge..gd for when im lazing on my couch n using the comp..

well..in response to berd's comment on hearing how vista is not tt great..i mean..in term of gorgeousness..it speaks for itself..and we all know that  i need all my things to be gorgeous..so criteria passed..

on the flipside..the OS still needs getting used to..for eg..i totally dont like the start menu to begin with..and the directory windows or folders are a tad bit too irritating..but then again..maybe im not used to it yet la..

also..funny how processes still tend to lag..while switching windows n opening files..then again..1gb is the minimum ram needed to run vista..maybe i should upgrade to 4gb ram..ya rite..like as if i got money..

ms office is another hassle..i actually tried the beta version on my lappy last yr..and its pretty much as i said..a hassle..but i've had experience as i mentioned so it wasnt so harrowing for me..

seems like there are more cons than pros hor..but then again..all in due time..i just need to get used to the system and i guess things will work out much better..in due time..

but end of the day hor..the whole gorgeousness of vista tops everything..like come on la..it gorgeous..wat more can u ask for rite..

ok..nuff of the vista crap..Ace..my lappy is seriously crashing..and im really worried..everytime i shut it down..im not sure if it will ever start up again..teh signs are there..time is running short..im backing up as much of the necessary stuff as i can before i re-format it..arrgh..then its gonna be another hassle re-installing everything..dang nabbit..pls pull thru for me ok Ace..

on another note..last nite..i started work at 10..and my baby was gonna be having din din at his bestie's place..so he invited me over as well..lil did i know tt it was gonna be a mini gathering..baby n nick d (his bestie) cooked din din..pasta with mushrooms and baked salmon with cincalok* sauce..all u malays n peranakans would know cincalok..nick seth and john also came by and they brought the starter dish..avocado and shrimp in mayo n wasabe sauce topped with caviar..in a half grapefruit shell..lavish i tell u..then dessert was these cream puffs they bought from god knows where but they were delish..we all had wine with the meal..and it was a nice cosy affair..we were joined by jay and chris n emeric..and a few of them went on talking bout london n paris n europe..i was just glad i was with my baby..oooh..me n baby also spent some time together watching naruto..we're such geeks i tell u..anime fans..nick d is a bleach fan too..i cant wait till baby finishes his naruto so that he can move on to watching bleach..then he'll know how cute hitsugaya toushiro is..hee..

work was a drag..but i got a few things done..so im pretty pleased..got some work done on my new pc too..oh dear..i dread having to fork out 200+ to get the licensing for ms office 2007..it bloody retails for tt much la..eeks..then another 70+ in 3 months to get the norton licensing too..arrgh..more money need to spend..eeks..

ok ok..another thing..for the sake of my dear boi boi..i gonna change the name of the link to his blog..heee..cause i think he has gone past the legong stage of 6 months ago..my boi boi uni student now hor..smarter than me liao..hee..

ok la..wat else i need to do before i sleep ah..sheesh..i cant remember..tts all for now..tata titi tutu.. =)



ghost..

ok..there you have it..my HP 19'' Flat-screen LCD monitor..its a gorgeous beauty..shiny shiny..black black..

specifications for the cpu..

Processor, operating system and memory
Processor type	AMD Athlon™ 64 X2 Dual Core Processor 4400+ with HT Technology • 2.30 GHz, 2x 512 KB Exclusive L2 Cache, up to 2000MHz System Bus
Operating system installed	Genuine Windows Vista® Home Premium
Chipset	NVIDIA® NForce™ 430 chipset
Standard memory	1024 MB
Memory type	DDR2-SDRAM
Memory slots	4 DIMM sockets

Internal drives
Internal hard disk drive	320 GB
Hard disk controller	SATA 3G Hard Disk Drive
Hard disk drive speed	(7200 rpm)
Optical drive type	SuperMulti SATA Drive
Optical drive speed	SuperMulti SATA Drive with Lightscribe Technology, Double Layer (8.5GB) 16xDVD+R, 16xDVD-R, 8xDVD+RW, 6xDVD-RW, 8xDVD+R DL, 4xDVD-R DL, 5xDVD-RAM, 16xDVD-ROM; 40xCDR, 24xCDRW, 40xCDROM

System features
Memory card device	15in1 memory card reader
Network interface	Ethernet 10/100BT integrated network interface
Video capture interface	IEEE 1394 FireWire® Interface
Video adapter	NVIDIA® GeForce™ 7500LE PCI-Express Graphics Card with TurboCache
Video RAM	256MB dedicated graphics memory. Up to 512MB Total Available Graphics Memory as allocated by Windows Vista®
Internal audio	integrated stereo sound system - 7.1 Surround Sound Ready
Audio connectors	2 Line-in; 1 Line-out; 2 Microphones; 1 Headphone; Side Spkr L/R; Rear Spkr L/R; Central/Subwoofer; SPDIF-Out
Keyboard	HP low profile multimedia cordless keyboard (2.4 GHz) with one touch command center and HP cordless optical 2-button scroller mouse
External drive bays	External - (2) 5.25", (2) 3.5"; Internal - (2) 3.5"
Expansion slots	1 PCI Express (x16),1 PCI-Express (x1), 2 PCI
External I/O ports	6 USB 2.0 ports (2 front, 4 rear), 2 PS/2, LAN, 2 IEEE 1394

Software
Software - education / reference / entertainment	Microsoft® Windows® Media Center featuring: My DVD, My Video, My Pictures, My Music, HP DVD Play, RealOne Player™, Microsoft® Windows Media Player 10
Software - internet & online	Microsoft® Internet Explorer

Dimensions / weight / warranty
Weight	9.60 kg
Dimensions (W x D x H)	175 x 414 x 387 mm
Package dimensions (W x D x H)	245 x 599 x 498 mm

did i tell you guys it comes with wireless mouse n key board..c'est magnifique i tell you.. =)

well..so here i sit..on my sofa..bout a metre away from my screen..the fonts are set to large so i can read easily from a distance..if only there was a bit of light so i can see the keyboard..anyhow..jus wanted to say welcome back to my dear dear omie..i know u had fun..now its time to fulfill ur duties as a best fwen..

anyhoots..let the world knoe..i've gone hp..wanted to get an acer pc just now..but they didnt have the model i wanted..so i settled on this gorgeous HP model..i tell u..wait till i post up the specz n pics tomm..all u ppl sure jealous one..wahahaha..

ok la..not tt easy typing in the dark ahh..tts all for now..


whee..

i foresee a lot more sighing in time to come..

well..berd..in response to ur facebook comment..its not really wat i want..its wat rasiff n chong wants..and its wat im goin along with..for the time being tt is..it all makes sense la..its 6 months since i been in st james..i'd definately have to put my exp in st james in my resume or else my prospective employer will be wondering wat i've been up to this past half yr..in a way..it would make sense for me to at least confirm the promotion to senior server..tt way i at least have somthing else to show for in my resume..if so i decide to stay in this low paying service industry..

second thing is..bonus in dec..tts like eons away..but ya..getting there..if i can so stay tt long..it be a gd thing also la..more cash..aws plus variable bonus..maybe i can finally take a trip to aussie to see my best frens..pay off some of my long overdue bills..and maybe have some spare change to finally go thailand..if by then work still really sucks..then dec will be my last month..grab the cash..go for holiday..then come back to a new job hopefully..

so u see..its not really really much of wat i want..its wat i've gotten myself into..and wat im pushed up against..tts making me stay..i mean..yeah..i do hope things will take a turn for the better..tt i will rid of the feeling of draggin my ass to work everyday..if such a thing were to happen..hell..i'd stay longer..who knows rite..time will tell..

rasiff came up to me after briefing today..here's the conversation tt ensued..

R: So what did u have for dinner today? (with big smile on his face)
A: who? me? dinner?
R: Ya..wat did u eat?
A: eh..Nasi Ayam Goreng..not tt nice la..
R: (Maintains huge ass smile on face)
A: But tts not the question tt u really wanted to ask rite?
R: (Maintains huge ass smile on face)
A: I accept ur offer..i'll take the promotion n see gallery thru the renovations..and we'll see how it goes from there..
R: (offers his hand out to shake) Thank you.
A: (shakes his hand) thanks boss..
R: actually you shouldnt be thanking me..you should thank yourself for giving urself a chance..

blah blah..drama hor..well berd..now they have to give me the promotion no matter wat..cause if they dont then i'll just leave..haa..and i dont think they want me to leave right now..so im jus waiting for chong to do the appraisal..


ann..glad things are looking up for you..the way i see it..tt new gm is no dog..he's just a major biatch..so let him screw around..hell..he lost u..hope he suffers for his loss..haaa..cheers to ur new job.. =)


on the brigher side of things..im really loving my bf..a lot a lot..so im clearing my 3 days ph n 4 days al in hope of spending more time with him..and ya..get laid while im at it..haa..

i bought this gorgeous puma bag 2 days back..

mine is green with black linings n straps..the army camou kinda green..wanted the brown actually but no stock..the bag is huge n i love it..prob huge nuff to stuff 2 chivas 4.5l..set me back 89..not bad la..

decided..this sun..me n daddy(the biological one) are gonna head out to get my new PC..kinda have my eyes set on an
 Acer Aspire T180 (AD40D1R2)
cant wait for sun..lots to do if i get the pc..set it up..transfer my lappy things..then reformat my whole lappy..then set up the lappy again..shag..

i applied for ph on national day..hope to stay home to catch the parade on tv..woots!!

i dunno..maybe things are starting to look up for me in my life..


ghost..

well..thanks ann for ur words..didnt think tt u'd stil be reading my blog after all this time..where have u moved on to now? do tell me more ok..

anyway..rasiff had a long talk with me today..45mins of it..mostly him talking..i barely spoke 10 sentences i guess..but main thing is..he kinda made me reconsider..his point is..take the promotion..then wait out..n if down the road i choose to leave..then by all means..but he kept goin on how he saw so much potential in me..blah blah..like i need u to tell me..come on la..i can do the job of a supervisor f i were given the chance..hey..not to brag..but a diploma..tonnes of work experience..and 4 yrs in the army..im pretty sure i can do the job well..duh..

so..i guess..thing is..i'll withdraw tt resignation letter..get my promotion..wait out till after the gallery reno..then see how things go from there..but tts not gonna stop me from keeping a lookout fo other job oppurtunities..

man oh man..do i really need to sort out my life..sheesh..

the song that has been playing since i left st james tonite..Me and Mrs Jones by Michael Buble..

Well, it's time for us to be leaving,
It hurts so much, it hurts so much inside,
Now she'll go her way and I'll go mine,

i cant bring myself to believe in the next line..

But tomorrow we'll meet the same place, the same time.

this absolutely sucks..

its jessea's last day today..she'll be gone for a month..holidaying in canada..i wrote a note to her and at the end of the night..she gave me a hug..

at 2.30..aladdin tells me tt chong wanted to speak to me..so i went over to the smoking room..sat down with her..i was half expecting her to ask me why i wanted to quit..but her reason for calling me over was to go thru my appraisal..i was due for the promotion she mentioned a few weeks back..but before she could proceed..i told her my intention of tendering at the end of the night..she remained calm..as berd said..she probably was expecting it..so she began tryin to psycho me to stay..insisting tt she wont accept the letter until i find myself a better job..tt i should use the time gallery is up for reno to take a break..at the end of it all..i told her my mind is made up..she told me the words that i expected to hear from her..tt im always welcome to come back..wat i didnt expect was tt she said she wished i could join her at movida..part of me feels tt i have let her down..i even feel guilty towards kelly..eventho she is long gone..i feel guilty towards all the staff for leaving them at such a crucial time..but i made up my mind..its time for me to move on..fuck im really feelin damn fucked up right now..

at the end of the night..when i went up to the office to see mr rasif..i felt kinda sick..but i had to go thru with it..i handed the letter to him and he asked what it was..i just said im resigning..and he asked y as he read it..i just kept mum..then he said he'd talk to me bout it tomm and that was that..i left the office with a very  very heavy heart..

and that heavy heart is wearing me down right now..pls pls let this be the right move..

pls..

-my baby..cause we went out..had dinner at a food court..side by side..then watched 'Simpsons: The Movie'..hand in hand..head to head..then walked side by side thru a pasar malam..bought some food..then sat on a bench..under a block..ate and chatted..i love the jokes he tells me..then we walked to the bus-stop..my hand round his waist..his hand round my shoulders..we even kissed..in public..i really love my baby..he makes me happy..


-my omie..for calling me up just b4 his trip..for mailing me and asking me for my shoe size..hee..he is such a pal..


-my abg berd..for being the voice at the end of the line when i called him in london on sat nite..and for being the voice on skype for those many hours we chatted..and for getting me to add a killer rabbit on my facebook cause im hooked to it..haa..

i shall not talk bout the unpleasantries of work..altho i must say..my determination to quit wavered when i tot of all the customers that i will miss..damn..lets not go there..

i love so much..


*mao*

can u believe..in less than 7 days..some stupid fuck caused 2 of my loved ones to leave work..and who is that stupid fuck..none other than Aladdin..nbcb!! ur a fucking stupid boss!!

im done..its through..i made up my mind..im getting myself out of that fuck place..

finally got to meet up with my kor, ge and bryz..in one place..at the same time..miss being with them so much..and kor offered me to work with him at his new place..sigh..im really considering..

hey..when ur sleepless..u do nonsensical stuff..this is gonna be a long one..heee..ur fault Omie..

hey..i was a cute kid..so sue me.. =)


then i had to get all geeky in school..


it was only in poly tt i started to have a fashion sense..my own..haa..


i had these lovely ladies to thank for..they made my 3 yrs a blast..


thats my eddie ge..we met in final yr..became gr8 frens..did sunset bay together..and eventually ended up in bmt together..think he was the first str8 guy i came out to in poly..


my law ge was the sweetest chap to me..i came out to him too and he totally didnt mind..and he'd gossip with me..jio me swimming..


the sunset bay crew..i never really played any volleyball..i just sat there n swooned..hee..superman eventually ended up being my platoonmate in OCS..


21st august 2001..got enlisted to kilo pl3 sect1 bed 11..3111..my magic numbers..the fieldcamp pic was taken a few days b4 my birthday..


man..gone were the days my stomach was tt flat..haa..tts my buddy spider in the cap and bestie bran in the shades..the heat n smoke were getting into our eyes la..


felt quite proud tt i made it to ocs considering my fitness level..and im thankful tt i had my buddy and besties bran n james(in pic) with me..


our first major competition..in tst..im surprised i ran faster than some of my seniors..btw..im the superbotak with the xmen logo on the back..


we 46'ers are an oddball bunch but we loved each other..i'd never trade anything for the memories and the friendships..


fish..jcc was hell for me..esp when i got screamed at by cpt bonnie..but it was him tt taught me my greatest lesson tt helped my team survive the last few days of chillbone..hey..this faggot loved the dirt n jungle..


hey..not many ppl have a sword at home u know..one of my greatest achievements was surviving them 10 months..but i had my brothers with me..


the day i felt empty inside..the day i was commissioned..i just felt lost tt day..saddened tt it was all over..besties n buddy made it thru too..


i will never forget..baz n me went to the same pri sch..while my bestie yani n baz's gf mariam were in kindergarten together..i looked so damn scrawny back then..haa..


my first task in tekong as a pc was to be in charge of the CO evening item..and my boys decided to dance..then it was also decided that i would dance with them..i love them boys for their enthusiasm..


this is the family i love..we worked hard and played hard together..no lines were drawn..and everyone had equal respect..4yrs in the army..this is the one family i love..


this is me n bestie james..the nite we first heard the beautiful voice and meaninful words of Corrinne May..who knew she would be such a hit in yrs to come..i still have her autograph..


this here is danny..gr8 fren i made in bmt..gr8er frens we became after we commisioned..


shawn..my first batch rec..one of the dancers..he bumped into me on the streets with my ex alex..from then on..we became gr8 gay frens..and it was thru him i discovered the gay clubbing scene..


my second batch of recs..another big boys batch..damn loveable..so much positivity..esp the guy on my right..made me proud to be doin wat i did when he said he wanted to go to OCS and be an officer..even tho he didnt..i still respect the man..


my enhanced batch..loved them cuase they were the hottest..where i got to know n cherish 3 precious souls..joseph ge..he took care of me so many times after bmt..calvin yeoh tian'an..he gave me 2 precious gifts..his frenship..n his mum..haa..me n his mum are gr8 frens now..n lester..he was the one who gave me my ex mike..sweet chap set up his gay ex pc with his frens colleague..


this is us at jazer's goin away party at settlers cafe..we had so much fun there..and this was one of my early shots with my boo..karin n tony were telling me how obvious it was tt there were sparks between me n ian..


darling evan..gorgeous gal..tony's evil twin..


me n d..my bestie from 'c' coy together with ash..


this was a reunion of the 46ers at our fave place..al-ameen i think the name..haa..


chillin with the guys of 2sir at tioman..with the gal im perpetually in love with..Edle..


them brudders of 2sir..at sentosa..


tocky is one buddy i can always depend on..he took care of me when i was sick..


life thru the lens of an NVG..


we're fat n we love it..


brendan ge..evan..tony n me..at hotstones rest at clarke quay..